I have to start by saying that David and I are both really competitive. I don't know if it was the playing sports growing up or what, but we (ahem, usually I) make almost everything into a competition. It's usually all in good fun, but I finally realized that it might stem, at least on my part, from something deeper.
David is one of those people who is good at almost everything. He's always had perfect grades. It drove me absolutely crazy in high school. (Let's be honest, it still kind of does.) I would work my butt off on a paper, feel great about it, EDIT his paper for him, and then he'd get a better grade than me. He was even English Student of the Year our junior year even though he spent almost every class period playing a game, messing around, or talking - *K, I know it pained you to give it to him, but he did have the highest grade somehow..* He's a talented athlete and was captain of the soccer team our senior year. He got a full ride business scholarship at Wichita State, and he's worked 30+ hours/week as an accountant while in school full time.
Uhhh... That's kind of hard to compete with. And the stress of finishing up my last couple finals and trying to find a 'real' job on top of graduation, moving, and oh yeah, the wedding led to me having a bit of a breakdown the other night. I feel like David excels in everything he does, and as hard as I try, I don't. I feel like I'm mediocre at almost everything. I sat there bawling my eyes out - I feel like crying has become a common theme here! - and David said one of the sweetest, truest things I've ever heard:
He said, "YOU are the reason I'm able to be successful and do what I do. But it's not even what one of us does or accomplishes on our own. We're a team and everything we do is because of each other and for each other."
And that is exactly what I needed to hear. Have I mentioned how excited I am to marry him? Whether or not everything gets done in the next 30 days, I will become a wife to my teammate, best friend, and better half which is really all that matters.
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I love you, babe.
Has your fiance given you a similar wake-up call?